Walter Parker was describing a moment from almost 50 years ago, when a friend and fellow soldier was shot and killed, right beside him, in Vietnam.
Losing his buddy that way—and having to kill others in a war zone—has haunted him for life. But these days, he has a new friend to help him cope.
Jackson, a 2-year old golden retriever and trained psychiatric service dog, seems to understand the anxiety Parker feels and helps alleviate it.
“I feel comfortable going anyplace because I have this dog as security,” Parker said. “I think this dog has saved my life.”
Parker had struggled with flashbacks for decades, long before they were linked to post-traumatic stress disorder.
In his day, people called it being shell-shocked—and didn’t consider it a medical condition.
Parker, who’s 68 and lives in Caroline County, had suppressed as much as he could from his two years in Vietnam, which included being in Saigon during the Tet Offensive and later in DaNang.

Vietnam War veteran Walter Parker, 68, spends time with his psychiatric therapy dog, Jackson, at his Caroline County home. Parker suffers from PTSD and had extreme flashbacks, which stopped once he got Jackson as his dog. (PETER CIHELKA/THE FREE LANCE-STAR)
All those memories came rushing back in 2010, after he suffered symptoms from a late-stage case of Lyme disease. His brain was affected so severely, he didn’t recognize his own family for a while.
The fallout from Lyme encephalopathy led Parker’s wife, Susan, to search for a therapy dog. The couple got Jackson in July from paws4people, an organization based in Wilmington, N.C., that taps into the “special powers” of dogs to help children, veterans and senior citizens.
Jackson has been assigned to Parker since April and has become his “wingman,” said Parker’s youngest son, Michael.
“I don’t feel like anything bad is going to happen,” Parker said. “This dog has got my back.”
THE LOSSES OF WAR
In Vietnam, Parker became good friends with a Mexican soldier named Victor. The two shared foxholes and went through terrible gunfire when they delivered supplies to other Army units.
Parker felt like he was a member of Victor’s family. Victor had flown to Hawaii to see his wife after she gave birth to his daughter, and Parker enjoyed photos of the happy family.
Two months later, Victor was shot—right beside Parker—and didn’t make it. Before he died, he begged Parker to take his personal effects to his wife and tell her what had happened.
As Parker described the moment, he started to tremble, and his voice dropped to a whisper. He was sitting in his living room, but his mind had taken him back to the jungles of Southeast Asia.
His son sensed what was happening and called Jackson over. The dog sat in front of Parker and looked into his master’s face.
Susan Parker lifted Jackson onto the couch so the dog and his soft fur covered Parker’s lap.
Parker rubbed Jackson’s belly and stroked his silky ears. Both his hands were wrapped around the dog who had been rolling on his back on the floor moments earlier, but was perfectly still in Parker’s lap.
A few minutes later, Parker was able to talk again.
“This dog’s eyes literally go down into my heart, and it’s like he’s listening to what I’m feeling,” Parker said. “I did not understand how this dog was going to do what they said he could do, but there’s something about this that is really real. I can feel something different.”
IMPROVED QUALITY OF LIFE
Susan and Walter Parker have been married for 20 years, and she’s his third wife. Like his first two spouses, she’s heard her husband moan during his sleep and seen the way he shook and cried during thunderstorms or when helicopters passed over on their way to nearby Fort A.P. Hill.
His family knew how to work around his triggers. They didn’t walk up behind him and startle him. At restaurant tables, they let him sit facing the door so he could see who approached. They had headphones handy for him to wear during storms.
Parker never got violent during the episodes. Instead, he became frightened of everything around him.
The bout of Lyme disease magnified his disorder.
“That was the scariest thing I ever saw in my life,” said his son, who’s 19, and had to help keep tabs on his father because he was prone to running away when something scared him. “We don’t have to go through that anymore because he’s with Jackson.”
The paws4people program matches veterans—most from recent conflicts in Iraq and Afghanistan—with dogs that help them adjust to loud noises or being in large groups of people. Some of the dogs are trained by prisoners in five facilities in West Virginia.
Parker and Jackson were matched in April and went through training before Jackson came home to Caroline.
The Parkers didn’t have to pay any fees associated with Jackson and his training, which total about $35,000.
But they are asked to pay it forward and raise money for another veteran—or disabled child or senior citizen—to get a dog.
The Parkers are having a fundraiser from 9 a.m. to 1 p.m. on Saturday at Old Mill Park.
“For what this dog has done for Walter and his family, that’s the least we can do,” Susan Parker said.
Her husband added: “If I can help one person feel the quality of life improve like I have, I want to do that.”
PROUD TO HAVE SERVED
Parker got full disability from the government after the Lyme disease. He works two days a week in the lawn and garden section of the Central Park Walmart, so he can get out of the house and have contact with people.
He sees a Veterans Administration counselor every three months.
He continues to have flashbacks, even with Jackson, but his wife said he hasn’t had to be medicated in recent months. The medicine usually knocked her husband out for hours.
She said the difference between her husband’s behavior, before and after Jackson, is like night and day.
Parker even started wearing a Vietnam veteran hat—something he never did before.
“I’m proud I served my country,” he said. “I am hurt by the outcome and how it turned out, but you can’t keep that in your heart all these years.”
Cathy Dyson: 540/374-5425